(:
Okay..
so heres the deal. (:

I'm halfway through with sewing my new vest, and I got the idea, I WANT A PENPAL(: haha
Preferably someone who LOVES to talk (:

I'm 18 (: I would like to travel, I like working with my hands sewing & making stuff, I read & write stories, I can usually fix anything that breaks, I was saved when i was eight. I volunteer a lot of my time at church. And I LOVE vanilla milkshakes (:

so if you totally want to snail mail me..
E-mail me your address and a bit about you (:

e_kidd@live.com

Love in Christ,
Emily

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twenty-one things.

Quotelove: "Yeah but you said you were going that's why I'm going."  "And that's why I called her last night and told her I was sick, like a ninja."
"Darling, I don't know how to tell you this, there's a Chinese family in our bathroom."
Snacking on: Fruit Loops & Coke.
Watching: WWE Raw(:



    How are you all today (: "hmm? good? yes? hmm? yes?"(misadventures of flapjack). 
Sometimes life is hard, and it's not really a lot of fun. Really, it's filled with a lot of hard choices. And sometimes, our patience is tested by having to wait for things.
   I am not a patient person in the best and brightest of situations, so picture me trying to wait now. It's excruciating. Like no joke. To add to this lovely chaos, I am rather impulsive, so screwing up is very likely for me. 
   I totally have class tomorrow and I might just get out of class early (: because we totally have a test, but it should be pretty easy breezy lemon squeezy. (:
   So basically the purpose of this post is to list the 21 things i want to do before i turn twenty-one. (: haha It's great stuff I promise.


Twenty-One Things I Want to Do Before I Turn Twenty-One


One. Kiss [you] under the stars.
Two. Read 400 books. [57]
Three. Stop drinking pop. (:
Four. See the northern lights.
Five. Run a bookstore.
Six. Try alligator.
Seven. See the Pacific ocean.
Eight. go watch wwe raw(: live.
Nine. Stop letting people push me around.
Ten. Kiss [you] in the rain.
Eleven. Do something amazingly on impulse.
Twelve. dress up for halloween one more time.
Thirteen. Make a kickbutt birthday cake.
Fourteen. Make [you] dinner.
Fifteen. Let my hair grow out...
Sixteen. Love [you].
Seventeen. To make every ornament used on my christmas tree.
Eighteen. Watch the sun rise through a broken stained glass window.
Nineteen. Kiss [you] goodnight.
Twenty. To be me.
Twenty-One. move out.


Welp, folks. thats my top twentyone. (: 


Hope you have an amazing night.

the giant snakehunt.

Watching: In Search of the Giant Anaconda

Wonders: What could possess this guy to hold that snake?

quotelove: And I wear red lipstick and a black strapless dress. Like a
rockstar Cinderella.–-Natalie Lloyd-


Hello Out There

    I hope you are somewhere out there chilling in your jammies with a cup of hot tea, just like me. Because honestly this is great. Other than the snake part of my night. Snakes are weird and major creepy. And I know that this is mean, but I just wish that these retards that mess with these snakes would get bit. Okay so now I have to tell you about Wednesday. Here I am, exausted, trying to rack up a few precious hours of sleep before the directtv guy shows up. Of course mom wakes me up at 8 to wait on him.. he didnt get there until after 11. So Im upstairs trying to stay out of the guys way, when he comes upstairs and says..



Mr. Direct man: Emily.

And I was like.. um yeah?

Mr. Direct man: Do you have a pet snake?

Me: ... noooo.

Mr. Direct man: um, well, did you know you have a snake in your basement?

Me: Excuse me?

Mr. Direct man: you have a snake in your basement.

Me: One more time. (I could hear him.. I think.)

Mr. Direct man: there is a snake down there.

Me: OH MY... Jesus take the wheel.. umm.. no I sure didnt know that.

Mr. Direct man: oh well yeah you do. Hes a big one.

Me: oh Jesus help me. Well thanks for telling me.



    So, not knowing what to do, I call dad while Mr. Direct man goes outside to rig up some capturing mechanism. So I tell dad and he says that hell take care of it.. when he gets home. And the only thing he requests is to not tell mom under any circumstance. So all is well and good. He couldnt catch the snake, but it crawled under the bathtub where it couldnt hurt anyone. So here I am.. all okay and what not.. and then Mr. Direct man walks upstairs.



Mr. Direct man: Emily?

Me: yes?

Mr. Direct man: um you know that snake?

Me: um, yeah did it come back?

Mr. Direct man: maybe.

Me: maybe?

Mr. Direct man: well it was either that one or another one.

Me: (squeeking) another one?

Mr. Direct man: Yeah

Me: Where is it?

Mr. Direct man: in the ceiling over your closet.

Me: WHAT?!?!

Mr. Direct man: Oh yeah, I tried to get it, but I couldnt

Me: Oh MY GOSH! SPAWN OF SATAN. GET THEE HENCE.

Mr. Direct man: (looking at me weird) um.. I think you need to know something worse.

Me: What could be worse?

Mr. Direct man: Well there is a hole in your ceiling the size of its head, and well it can squeeze through anywhere its head can.

ME: ... anything else bearer of bad news?

Mr. Direct man: well...

Me: Yes?

Mr. Direct man: Its pretty fat.. theres a large possibility that it is pregnant.

Me: *o* ( that was my face. Literally)



    Good news though. He also said that my room was way too cold for the snake to even bother. But I swear, if that thing crawls its way into bed with me.. im moving out. HAHA (:

Just so everyone knows, I have to be up, showered, make-uped, beautiful, and on the road by 7:30am. And I was like... whoa nelly, hold the horse! So, its 2am and I think I'm getting up at 5:30. No biggie I don't need sleep. Haha. What in the world is going on tomorrow you might ask… My sister Katie is performing at cheerleading camp, and me and Nicole get the gift of going to pick her up at Tennessee Tech. You think that I am complaining, but I assure you that is not the case. Im excited. Like no joke. Basically for four reasons. 1. I love to travel. (like no kidding man. Just getting in the car and going somewhere makes my day. I couldnt be happier.) 2. One word. STARBUCKS! (yum) 3. Taco bell (: 4. I dont have to spend all day cleaning. (:

So basically other than the giant snake holing up in my ceiling, its been a great week and now Im prepared to start a brand new week.

AND I HAVE AWESOME NEWS. SOMEONE HAS TAKEN OVER CLEANING THE CHURCH UNTIL SEPTEMBER. (:

YAYNESS. I have Saturdays back now.



Anyways (: if you are looking for a good short story (: go here. (:
Natalie's Story (: Ashes READ IT! its good (:



Otherwise.. Ill see you next time (: Im going to bed.

Love like the Rain.

emily ann

the ultimate gift.

Qoutelove: Sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast. (Alice in wonderland.)

I never thought that I would live to make it to this day. It all seems so surreal. I mean, in seven hours.. I will be graduating. Yes, I’m writing this at 3am. DON’T JUDGE ME (: haha I can’t sleep. So I thought that I would recap my last four years.. Somehow they slipped by way too fast without me even knowing what was going on. But first, a few thoughts.

1)       Graduation is in 7 hours..

2)      No more school.. (haha summer classes start june 1)

3)      Graduation is in 7 hours.

4)      OH MY GOLLY GUM.. GRADUATION IS IN 7 hours.

5)      .. Was I supposed to iron my tassel lol it’s wrinkly.

6)      I wonder if my cake upstairs is going to be yummy.

7)      What in the sam heck am I going to wear to my party..

8)      I can’t wait to go to church on Sunday.

9)      ..i wonder if I’m going to get there in time for breakfast..

10)    OH NELLIE. I forgot to do the announcements.

FRESHMAN YEAR (:

Wow. Okay, honestly I was lucky. I didn’t have to spend my first few weeks of high school worrying that I would look like an idiot. I went to a Christian school. It totaled out at like 40 people… tops. Lol. But it did give me a different outlook on life so I do appreciate that. (: it was nice. I made friends with all kinds of different people, almost all of which I happened to like. I really loved getting to hear Dilbert Terry preach almost every morning which was nice. It made me smile. Thankfully nothing really embarrassing happened here lol. OH! And I went to the student convention in bowling green, ky. (: and I got 3^rd place in speech (: okay.. I’ll admit there was like 6 people lol but still (: haha I was a champion.. kinda.

         

          SOPHMORE YEAR

Whoa Nellie, hold the horse. SOMEHOW I landed myself into public high school, WITH REAL LIVE PUBLIC PEOPLE.. (random looking around)(yeah people think I’m a little off... haha oh well) which for me turned out to be the best. (: I liked all the people. This is year numero uno with Coach Burchy (: He loved me. Me and Catherine Hester became like uber close and even wrote a story for Coach Burchy about pirates and what not. Looking back, this year was super easy. I wish all of high school could have been like this, but sadly it was not. :( OH! This was also the 1^st time I tripped in the hallway spilling all of my books everywhere. (major embarrassing) It was very much a look at the klutz moment.

          JUNIOR YEAR

=year number dos of tripping in the hall, and coach burchy (: yayness. I drew pictures all over his bulletin board. It made him smile I know. OH! I did an amazing piñata for espanol 2 (: it was cool.. see... his name is hector.. the teacher had a cow.. I named her nellie (;

Oh this was also the year of TRITONES, school choir, winterjam, twilight on dvd, the “emo look”, walking into walls, the j-mark b-day cake (don’t ask), the dentist commercial, my friend mary moving away :(, my photography phase, my twilight obsession, TYLER DUNCAN (:, repainting my room to remind me of the ocean.. edward the dog (deceased), edward the fish (deceased), DORKY GLASSES, piano studded belts, and tri-hipper comics :) and 11th grade english with ms. brewster.

///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////SENIOR YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH WOW! Senior year flew by. I tripped in the hall.. again. Smiled at coach burchy every day.. somehow made it through AP English with ms. brew. it was tough. FOr me, senior year was all about, 

decorating lockers, writing my name in the sand, chillin at the park with buddies, JUPITER (sept. 2, 2009), football homecoming senior huddle, ice cream & cake (the dance lol), starbucks doubleshots :), stained glass windows, football games, pouring rain, band section, (: happiness, CHEESESTICKS, hiking (:, face painting, 4 haircuts, CALLING GLORY (GREAT CHRISTIAN BAND), zebra nails, nc youth trip, BOWS, eyeliner, nights with tyler, teagan my puppy, prom with tyler (:, senior day, baccalaureate, bedazzling graduation hats (:, taking over 400 pictures (:, and most of all (: love. OH! and almost having to pay 67.99 for my government book.

WOW! i cant believe that sums up high school (: but i guess all good things must come to an end. 

ADVICE!!!
CHerish High school (:
Love like the rain
Dance with the stars.
Don't waste time looking back (:

The ultimate gift is the gift of love and family, and i have both (: 

Until later, 

Emily ann. (: 

*Like i promised... MY CAP (:

finally feeling sunlight.

Listening to: And Now My Lifesong Sings-Casting Crowns

Quotelove: “Today is your song. Everything that you’re doing.” Mark Hall

May 16, 2010

So here I am. Graduation is 12 days away… counting weekends. (: I just counted to make sure. Wow I feel incredibly dorky now. Oh well. (: I am kind of tired. I stayed up until 4:34 making my graduation cap magnificent. I still have 4 hours to go. (: but let me tell you… you’re going to love, but you sooo have to wait until my end of May post. This is making up for last month.

      Today all of the senior teens at church went to preston’s for lunch (: I feel incredibly loved. Like... I finally feel like I’m completely at home with all of the older youth. (: they feel like family. It was nice. Especially when you think that there’s the possibility that you may never see some of them again.
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finally feeling sunlight
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      The whole point of this blog revolves around an idea… which is kind of top secret* so… I promise to fill you in later, but it is going to be preciously beautiful (: Mostly the idea revolves around a song. (: and it’s kind of old but basically… it’s still beautiful (: so… it’s still new, you know.

Finally feeling sunlight is all about being lost, in the dark, cold, alone, blind in a sense to everything around you, and then suddenly that burden being lifted. Taken away, healed in a sense and suddenly you are brought to the light. And you feel the warm sunshine on your arms for the first time in a long time. Then this really funny feeling begins to spread throughout your whole body defrosting your heart and pumping the fresh, warm blood through the rest of your aching, frozen limbs. It makes you feel a bit fuzzy at first, but then you realize it makes you feel alive. Like a feely good feeling was rising from the very tips of your toes and slowly crawling to the top, creating its own sort of beautiful right in the middle of your heart.

And SUDDENLY something hits you like a stack of bricks… this is what it feels like to surrender, to let JESUS take every bit and part of your life and to make it all His again. To clean you and save you over and over again, and you realize the magnificent love that dwells inside of your heart now, and you can’t help but to smile, because you feel so amazing inside. And you know that no matter how bad things threaten to get again, you are safe from the storm, wrapped in the loving hands of the one who calmed the seas. Knowing this, you have to look around to check and see if anyone else has caught on to this beautiful chaos erupting inside of your heart, causing you to leak from every possible opening with the purest and holiest of lights, because at that very moment you became His all over again. And all the feelings you felt the first time are intensified and somehow completely brand new.

This is giving up to Him your lifesong. And now my blog flows all back together again, and looping right where it began with … Listening to. (:


* i just like saying stuff is top secret to make myself feel more important.. much like i'm in a james bond movie (: haha i know. i'm dorky. i'm sure the secrets not even that big of a deal.

Live Your LIFESoNG! (:

Forever Yours,

Emily Ann. (:

.morning's first light.

quotelove: “Although Geppetto soon realized that Pinocchio was still made out of wood, it mattered little to him.”
                              (Pinocchio, page 7.)


February 19, 2010

Looking out into the night sky, I can see the stars. They are blanketed so perfectly random across the night sky as if God flung a bucket of glitter across His black canvas. It’s a cold night, the ground still clinging firmly to the chill of winter. I can feel my body begin to grow cold, and just a tad bit wet, but none of this matters as I stare into infinity. Because tonight, as I lay out under the stars, I know I am safe. Inside = potential danger, and I’m not quite ready to surrender just yet. I decide to play it safe until I know I’m strong enough to walk back into the battlefield so I curl up in my blanket just a wee bit tighter and begin to pen these thoughts.

The twinkling dots fill the sky much like fireflies in the warm summer air. But summer holds no meaning to what I am about to say. I was once told by a wise old man that, “The church was never meant by God to be an art gallery, but a hospital instead.” It is a place for soul healing in the most extreme way. A place to come before the creator of the milky way, and remember all the reasons you loved Him in the first place. And this makes me frown, because it reminds me that the church often isn’t used for that so much anymore. The church has accidentally allowed a monster into it’s presence. It's ripping the church apart from the inside out. And suddenly the members are cutting each other down. And they slowly drop out one by one until all that is left is a dried up piece of nothing.

Today

Sometimes I wonder what I would think of myself now if I had failed and cut again. I was so close that night. The blade touched my skin at least three dozen times before I threw it across the room and ran outside. I could already see that beautiful flower so perfectly sketched into my leg. I was already ten steps farther than I wanted to go. I had an emergency plan, planned out step by step, but the problem with emergency plans is, you have to WANT to get out of the situation, and at the moment I didn’t. I wanted to bleed, and scar, and then I would have a reason to sit around and feel sorry for myself. I wanted the adrenaline rush that usually followed my stupidity. But luckily a bit of sense flooded my mind, and visions of the possible future ran over me like cool relief.

So, I found myself outside thinking about the stars. And I love living in little ol’ barely on the map winfield, for one reason only. The stars can be clearly seen at night. Where I live, everything is really flat and whatnot and there really isn't a lot of trees around, and it's just like this vast blackness for as far as you could want. And really the beauty of it all overwhelms you as you look into something that you quite don't understand. And as I think I notice that some of the stars twinkled just a bit more brightly than others, and it reminds me of a quote I read once,

Each of us is like a star. sometimes we shine with the rest. Sometimes we twinkle* alone and sometimes, when we least expect it, we make someone’s dreams come true.

And that leads me to wonder how many people are out there wishing on one of these lucky stars. And how many guardian angels God is sending to help with their wishes. Because one night a little over a year ago, I was one of those people wishing. Only the really cool thing is, God started to grant it before I wished it. Looking back, I can see God’s hand in my life at this point of time. When I look over at my best friend at break, and he’s trying to push me over* I remember this point in my life quite vividly. Because without knowing it, I wished for him.

                                                  :]
                                    
Tylr Duncan (aka dare, the best friend, my guardian angel, the one I share all my secrets with) :]
I never thought that I would ever find a friend that I could be around all the time and never get tired of, because all of my friends begin to get on my nerves at a certain point. (: It’s true, sometimes he can be a bit dorky (and he tends to go act all smartical when he knows that I don’t understand :]), but you have to realize that it’s what makes him special. He’s one of those people that can always put a smile on your face, even if you’re a million zillion miles away. Honestly, I’m glad that we got into a fight and quit talking, because now, we’re even closer (: haha and I’m pretty much sure that after all we’ve been through, we’re supposed to be amigos. Because basically, I’d be lost without him and he would basically be crazy without me (; He is most definitely going to be the one that I will be friends with for the rest of my life. :) So haha.. Basically I can’t describe how happy I am that he’s back in my life. I honestly have no earthly clue how I got through the last few months without being completely bored to death. Tylr basically keeps me inline, and he is one of the main reasons I have permanently put away my knife. He was also the first person I told. There is this really great thing about him, where I can talk to him about absolutely anything, and no matter what I say, I know he won‘t ever look at me funny because of it. He’s the one living person on the whole world that knows almost all of my secrets.

“Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while, leave footprints on out hearts, and we are never, ever the same.” (Flavia Weedn)

    So, with this last quote I leave you to ponder and reflect upon your life, look for that one person who you can't stand to be without, and never let them leave, because they are the one's that leave footprints that start just an inch deep but then begin to grow and branch out into the farthest corners of your heart. Because those are the ones that you will regret letting walk away.

ALL MY LOVE
Emily Ann

* haha anyway, so he likes to try to push me over because apppppparently i "walk like a drunken sailor" and whatnot and I have horrible balance issues.. Mean right (: lol