finally feeling sunlight.

Listening to: And Now My Lifesong Sings-Casting Crowns

Quotelove: “Today is your song. Everything that you’re doing.” Mark Hall

May 16, 2010

So here I am. Graduation is 12 days away… counting weekends. (: I just counted to make sure. Wow I feel incredibly dorky now. Oh well. (: I am kind of tired. I stayed up until 4:34 making my graduation cap magnificent. I still have 4 hours to go. (: but let me tell you… you’re going to love, but you sooo have to wait until my end of May post. This is making up for last month.

      Today all of the senior teens at church went to preston’s for lunch (: I feel incredibly loved. Like... I finally feel like I’m completely at home with all of the older youth. (: they feel like family. It was nice. Especially when you think that there’s the possibility that you may never see some of them again.
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finally feeling sunlight
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      The whole point of this blog revolves around an idea… which is kind of top secret* so… I promise to fill you in later, but it is going to be preciously beautiful (: Mostly the idea revolves around a song. (: and it’s kind of old but basically… it’s still beautiful (: so… it’s still new, you know.

Finally feeling sunlight is all about being lost, in the dark, cold, alone, blind in a sense to everything around you, and then suddenly that burden being lifted. Taken away, healed in a sense and suddenly you are brought to the light. And you feel the warm sunshine on your arms for the first time in a long time. Then this really funny feeling begins to spread throughout your whole body defrosting your heart and pumping the fresh, warm blood through the rest of your aching, frozen limbs. It makes you feel a bit fuzzy at first, but then you realize it makes you feel alive. Like a feely good feeling was rising from the very tips of your toes and slowly crawling to the top, creating its own sort of beautiful right in the middle of your heart.

And SUDDENLY something hits you like a stack of bricks… this is what it feels like to surrender, to let JESUS take every bit and part of your life and to make it all His again. To clean you and save you over and over again, and you realize the magnificent love that dwells inside of your heart now, and you can’t help but to smile, because you feel so amazing inside. And you know that no matter how bad things threaten to get again, you are safe from the storm, wrapped in the loving hands of the one who calmed the seas. Knowing this, you have to look around to check and see if anyone else has caught on to this beautiful chaos erupting inside of your heart, causing you to leak from every possible opening with the purest and holiest of lights, because at that very moment you became His all over again. And all the feelings you felt the first time are intensified and somehow completely brand new.

This is giving up to Him your lifesong. And now my blog flows all back together again, and looping right where it began with … Listening to. (:


* i just like saying stuff is top secret to make myself feel more important.. much like i'm in a james bond movie (: haha i know. i'm dorky. i'm sure the secrets not even that big of a deal.

Live Your LIFESoNG! (:

Forever Yours,

Emily Ann. (: